Marilyn Conrad,  My/our Mom went to be with the LORD…
5 yrs ago today….
    Tonite, 5 yrs. ago….I spent the nite in the nursing home, beside her…
  partially in her bed….keeping my arm in the crux of the inside of her
elbow…. to feel her warmth…to know she was still with me.
    My arms are fat …just like my Mom’s arms were….
before I use to hate them…but after that nite, 
I treasure my fat arms….. and they in a dumb way remind me of her ….
to the world they probably think something else of my arms….
  to the world they also looked at my Mom in different ways than she meant. 

   I still dream vividly of my Mom…..
   I still will catch myself doing things, just like her….
  I see my grandkids through her eyes…
    I sing hymns that she loved…… I use a dish that was hers…..

I read a card she sent me….her Bibles….I have picture upon picture
on my desk right now….
   I still ache deeply……I still ache when I go to the fair and she is not
going with me to get a lemonade…or a corn dog…. I drove to Grace
College a week ago and just cried on the way…for we had made that
trip so many times together…..
      Has time healed…. sure …some…
But in the fact, she loved us so deeply…..
  She cared more about us, than herself…… she gave to us, way before
she ever gave herself….She loved GOD So so so deeply…it brought
many tears to her eyes……
   She went through so much that some will never realize….
And yet….5 yrs. have past……………. 5
   Many things have happened that she will never see or know.
But yet she had a part in their coming to be….for she helped form
that grandson or grandaughter that are now GREAT – GREAT PARENTS.
    She showed us JESUS CHRIST and now our grandchildren are knowing
Him too.  
    Some things I do differently that I wish she would of done for herself…
Some things I do the same….in honor of her…and in hopefully, prayerfully..
following her deep love for our Lord and Savior JESUS CHRIST.
    Do I wish she was here ?  fleshly yes
    Would I ask her to leave the presence of JESUS CHRIST – never.

I thank the Lord…that HE knew me before I was formed in my Mom…and
I am glad …I  –  was formed in My MOM….and HE knew..she would show
me who HE was and is !