Really , it is for HIM alone,  but it is something that TOUCHES your heart….
   In  ’01 I quit  Teens for Christ – as in following what I believed was GOD leading….
   Home for an individual mission with Him…( embedded in my soul )
   Didn’t understand it….but those were the words….Individual with HIM .

1st –  3 mo. later – Mom got cancer….. 
The walk of my life…with hers….incredible…
      Then asked to come and speak in Ill. at a retreat…
      This is what “I THOT”  God was asking me to do – speak at Retreats….

That was it – period….OVER….
   BIG Hershey Chocolate Bar – eat it….OVER…smile

Then Africa  ~   I thot, O.K.  GOD….this is what you were talking about !
   Thrilled – excited and STILL WALKING this one out !

Then today…. Sheri Ketner calls,  to be on Grace for Today – Recap Africa
Then today …a Church in Harrod – ” could you speak at our ladies Retreat ?

I had to smile…. shake my head…. ” seriously GOD…. 2 in one day ? ”
 My mind went back to crying for hours on my bed in Africa…
   Thinking I disappointed GOD….in how the message went…
   Thinking how I just laid at His feet….and gave as Stanley Tam wrote in 
           his book , ” Soul Winning ” – giving your body to the HOLY SPIRIT ..
           O.K. GOD – nothing but eternal….nothing but eternal…

That is all that went through my mind….
Today….it just felt like God was saying – I hadn’t forgotten, Janelle…

In that, my eyes water
In that, I am humbled….
In that, is where my true joy is….
      teaching, speaking,  what ever GOD asks…..

As I feel all this, I just came from Sherri Williiamson’s ICU room
50 years old….lying in a coma…..brain damage, severe…
    Please pray for Sherri,  and her family, for wisdom this week.